Posted in Past on November 3, 2007 | No Comments »
Some things don’t go away.
I remember West Coast..
I remember the lights..
I remember the walks i took in the evening..
I remember the older folks who gather round to banter the time away…
I remember sitting at the void deck, writing on post-its when a friendly granny chat me up…
I remember the time when a bicyclist struck fear [...]
Posted in Past, Uncategorized on October 17, 2007 | No Comments »
I took courage… and deleted her number.
Yes. Courage.
Because footprints etched into my life are not easily effaced.
Maybe it wasn’t anyone’s fault to begin with.
Some things just happen.
It’s just that i don’t want to be part of such…
… mistakes…
… miscommunication…
… misunderstandings…
… anymore.
Posted in Girlfriend Kai, Past on October 16, 2007 | No Comments »
I hate rumors.
I told Judy that Kai and I didn’t like the interconnection (Ju-Jo-K-Me-Ju) And my doubting has caused Kai to cry- you can read this .
And somewhere along the way, this story came back to me in this form:
That i am angry with Kai for wanting to send Joyce a “hi, how are you [...]
Posted in Past on September 21, 2007 | No Comments »
Over the phone…
J: “Would it have helped if i told you?”
And then… Continued justification of why there was reciprocation.
“She kissed me first…”
“I was confused…”
“We were having problems with our relationship…”
Unrepentent.
J: “I still have feelings for you.”
Your feelings hurt me. Can you not have feelings for me?
If you truly loved me… and knew how much i [...]
Posted in Past on September 21, 2007 | No Comments »
It doesn’t matter who suggested the hotel.
You know what happened on the breakwaters.
What kind of a variation of the picture can you offer me, that you were pulled on top of her by her?! You, with your strength… completely steered by someone more petite than you are?!
You asked me to hear from you.
Why should i?
Why [...]
Posted in Past on September 21, 2007 | No Comments »
I was angry with F because F lied about his house (financial or social status). When i found out after my relationship with F has ended, i was pissed that he told a stupid lie (stupid because it seems inconsequential to me).
I was angry with S, a friend of mine, who doted upon me and [...]
Posted in Friends of Anj, Past on September 21, 2007 | No Comments »
Friend: How did you know the truth finally?
I: It came out casually in a conversation… she was surprised i didn’t know.
Friend: then did you confront j?
I: She turned off her handphone. I didn’t want to call her house coz i didn’t want to get her into trouble with her parents.
Friend: never mind I think tomorrow [...]
Posted in Past on September 21, 2007 | No Comments »
The last piece of the puzzle… wasn’t the last piece of the puzzle.
When i knew that something transpired on those breakwaters of Pasir Ris beach… when i discovered that the truth was once again… another incomplete truth… when i was told that the reason why they proceeded to the hotel was because it was getting [...]
Posted in Past on September 2, 2007 | No Comments »
“You have to respect my decision.”
“You have to respect my decision too.”
Not the first time this sort of exchange transpired…
I said i feel nothing and that has to be respected.
She said she has every right to feel whatever she feels and to express whatever she wishes.
Don’t waste your time on me…
There is a destination you [...]
Posted in Past on August 29, 2007 | No Comments »
I wonder how you are doing…
It’s been more than a week since i last saw you… and i haven’t heard from you since.
I wonder if you are having fun…
These thoughts have taken harbour at the back of my mind, debouching at moments when the train wanders off-track.
I wonder if your little adventures have given you [...]
Posted in Past on August 24, 2007 | No Comments »
“Is there no chance at all between you and her?”
“Ahmm…”
It’s kind of weird don’t you think… to ask someone if she’s going to get back with her immediate ex after she broke up with the current?
What did you think i was doing… testing to see if there’s someone better? And if things don’t work out, [...]
Posted in Past on August 7, 2007 | No Comments »
I told Judy that i am open to possibilities in the future. People tell her “don’t be deluded” as if i am misleading her.
What’s wrong with this statement?
You will never know what’s gonna happen in future. Or do you mean you do? [You are so intelligent... why don't you start providing a "tell-your-fortune service"?]
When J [...]
Posted in Past, Pen it! on August 2, 2007 | No Comments »
The object…
She has no mind of her own.
She…
goes wherever others dictate.
Because she is an object…
She has no mind of her own.
The object…
An item off the shelf.
Only a person of caliber can reach her
Treasured she is.
Her owner sees her as precious..
A cherished thing she is.
Precious
.
.
Object… nonetheless.
The object is beautiful…
She glistens.
Her owner takes great pride in her.
The [...]
Posted in Past on August 2, 2007 | No Comments »
“So what kind of girls are you looking for now?”
I: “I am not looking… i am tired… i am taking a break.”
Posted in Past on July 31, 2007 | No Comments »
Just yesterday, she wrote that she was upset… that i told Joyce to call the police if she should call Joyce again. And in her blog post, she finished off with this… that she would die for me. The gist of the post being: Did i consider her at all? She didn’t feel protected.
This incident [...]
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